Crystal Miller

I was just telling the gals at park day that I have been going through old journals for the past 2 weeks and was going to put several passages on my blog we older pictures. It's fascinating stuff. I have personal journals & poetry since the age of 9 and it completely freaks me out how 'radically' different my life as a 9-year-old was then Sorscha's is now. I have really been enjoying the passages from our first months being RUers. What I have not enjoyed reading is from about the age of 16 to 23 (scary times) , except the separate journal I have about Dave & me. It's so cool how I was mesmerized by him from the beginning...and look 20 years later I still am.

I have realized one very interesting tidbit of information about my relationship with Sorscha. In looking back on the first three years of her life I absolutely embraced 'everything' she was. I knew she was whole, complete, and amazing from the moment I set eyes on her. The sad part is that somewhere around the age of 3 1/2 I let pressures from family and Mom's Clubs, etc. change that view. I became scared for her future and altered our path for about 3 1/2 years (real bummer to read all that). Anyhow, then the journals take me forward to around Sorscha's age of 7 1/2 where I scream at the world, "NO MORE." and we make our radical transformation back into the original world we started from. Neat stuff.
~Crystal~
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