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In a message dated 2/15/03 9:00:22 AM Central Standard Time,
[email protected] writes:

<< I try to be the best mother I can, because I had the best
father. >>

My Dad has inspired me to be a better Mom many times. He told me (when
Trevor was a very little guy) that when I got frustrated and angry to just
hug my child instead of berate him.
So sweet.
And he inspired me again a couple days ago...
Trevor was taking my camera equipment out to the car for our resource day.
It was two cameras with several lenses, filters and a videocamera which had
recordings of Christmas, Jalens first haircut, Trevor and Jalens Birthdays
etc....
Well, he set them on the trunk, instead of in it, and we drove of and
destroyed almost ALL of the equipment.
It made me ill.
Ten years of collecting stuff and about $2,000 down the tube in a moment.
I was physically ill and crying. It was awful. I was so mad at first, but had
time to cool off while driving around looking for parts that may have
survived (after dropping the kids off at resource day)
I remembered when I wrecked my Dads truck and how scared I was. I just KNEW I
was in deep S***. But when Dad sat down for "the talk" he just told me how
glad he was that I didn't get hurt and that he hoped I learned something
important and I'd be a safer driver from that day forth.
It was sweet and calm, not what I had expected at all...even though he was
almost always sweet and calm :)
So I thought of that when Trevor and I were talking about my cameras.
Trevor cried and I told him these things happen in life and it really sucks
because I can't replace a lot of it, but in the end it was just stuff. And
people matter more than stuff and I wasn't angry at him, just sad because I
didn't have my equipment anymore.
He felt so awful already, he didn't need anything to add to his misery.
But I thank my Dad for the inspiration to be sweet and calm in the face of a
minor disaster. He is a good example, I'm lucky to still have him.
My Mom died last year, I miss her terrible.

Ren
"The sun is shining--the sun is shining. That is the magic. The flowers are
growing--the roots are stirring. That is the magic. Being alive is the
magic--being strong is the magic The magic is in me--the magic is in
me....It's in every one of us."

----Frances Hodgson Burnett