Michelle Harper

Dear group, Last night I had a moment with my son, that was very touching.  As I was working on the computer, my son who was not yet asleep, walks in , crawls into my lap, with little tears in his eyes and says" Mommy, will you die before me?"  I said "yes honey, but my spirit will always be with you"  , I could see this was not as comfoting as I would have liked.."but I wanna die before you do"..Oh No don't say that honey...I'm older than you ..it is likely that I will pass on before you will, caus ei was born befor you"  SO Pop will die before you?  Well I don't know...I hope not...When will you die?   I don't know, honey,we don't really know before, but if I do die befor you...I will stay with you..my spirit...."will you look like this body?  if you like...I think you will imagine me as you want to, but this won't be for a long time..."Can't we just go together??" "and pop, too"????  I don't know....but our Love will always keep us together in SPirit.....I know we've discussed this thread onlist before, and I am not the type of person to encourage the "fear" of death...I want him to understand our belief is that our spirit lives forever, and that death is just a movement from this life to another level of consciousness.  But I noticed when I was typing up there...that when I became....well when I said..."Oh no don't say that".....I was also very fearful, because the thought of him dieing fbefor me, and as well my husband..is very scary....For some weird reason  I find it easier to accept my own death, and be comfortable, that the time will come, and I will just go, and not to fear that, because after all it is a part of this life ..but to think of living here, after knowing such a love...and not having them here to experience this life with....would make for....I don't know...a pretty dull sad, and awful experience.....I would never want to be without them, and this is not the first time I have pondered this.....sometimes when my husband comes home late I begin to worry that something may have happened....now not all the time mind you....but it is a fearDoes anyone else have any feelings on this?  Many Blessings, Michelle    P. S. I would feel somewhat violated if people could access totally personal feelingsa such as these , on a search engine...after all this is somewhat of a support group, and in these type sof groups it is in the spirit of the groups to assume soem degree of confidentiality.  wouldn't you think?  Not that it matters what someone might think that reads this, but it is rather personal..I should be able to choose to whom, I 'd like to share it with.