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Another one:
http://sandradodd.com/zeneverything

It's linked from sandradodd.com/articles, too.

I looked hard for Japanese clipart. <g>
That was fun all by itself!!

This one is about all my kids being analytical at an age earlier than I think
I was. I remember thinking things when I was little, but I don't remember
being very encouraged about it.

And there's a confession of a really bad mom-moment on my part.

Sandra

Jon and Rue Kream

Sandra - Of all of your writing that I've read, this is my favorite. I
particularly love, "Instead of being my mother's child, I am my children's
mother." The feeling for your kids that comes through in your writing is
so similar to mine - and so unfortunately unusual. I'll save this one :0).
~Rue

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In a message dated 6/21/02 3:55:10 PM, skreams@... writes:

<< Sandra - Of all of your writing that I've read, this is my favorite. I
particularly love, "Instead of being my mother's child, I am my children's
mother." >>

Thanks.

I kinda like the swirliness of it, things going backward and forward in
time, and my mom being there in texture but not in person. "How did your mom
explain it to you" just gave me the chills when Holly asked me. It SO
indicated that she didn't and will probably never know how different my life
was. And that being tired late at night and swatting a BABY, a two year old,
for playing happily was the evil ghost of my mom on a bad day.

I was apprehensive about ever having sent that out in the first place, but if
people hide their sins, if I hide my failures, then it's probably won't be as
helpful as if I edit my life to seem better than it is. I'm out of words for
this, and Holly and I need to leave to see Peter Pan in just a minute.
Musical Theatre of the Southwest is putting it on at Popejoy Hall (for those
familiar with UNM or Albuquerque).

What's really cool is Holly had quit fiddle lessons. When she wanted to go
back the teacher was all booked up (AND his bluegrass band has lots of work
now, plus he's already a fully employed homeschooling dad). But he
recommended another teacher.

The other teacher, he said, would do fiddle or classical, whichever.

I told her Holly had been doing bluegrass/old-timey because Jeff liked that,
but what Holly's real interest was was musical theatre.

"WHAT?"

She asked it strangely, and I said, "Well, she likes musicals, but the tunes
are really too hard for her as a beginner, and.."

"I LOVE musicals. I'm concert master for Musical Theatre of the Southwest!"

OH. COOL!!!!!

So today was Holly's first lesson with Linda Vik, and now we're leaving to
see Peter Pan, and will peek over and see the first-chair violinist, Linda
Vik!

Totally cool.

Thanks for the encouragement and compliment, Rue.

Sandra

Sharon Rudd

Thank you, yet again, Sandra. Have you always kept a
diary? When I was young I kept a poetry and sketch
sort of diary. But I was never able to articulate
wanting to provide a different childhood for my
children (than my own) without wallowing. Or is that
foundering? Except in the emotional shorthand of
poetry.

Are the fires too close?

Sharon of the Swamp

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In a message dated 6/22/02 7:50:24 AM, bearspawprint@... writes:

<< Are the fires too close? >>

Not this year.

<<But I was never able to articulate
wanting to provide a different childhood for my
children (than my own) without wallowing. Or is that
foundering? Except in the emotional shorthand of
poetry..>

I don't do poetry. Not a talent of mine.

There have been times I kept personal diaries for a while, but they embarrass
me a ton! <g>

But writing what my kids have done seemed less self-indulgent (or something)
and so I could do that without feeling like I was studying myself
contemplating my own navel.

I have a journal I kept for a human sexuality course in college. I re-read a
big chunk of it the other day. Yikes. I was not at that time yet aware of
the cause of my mom's sexual uptightness (raped by her brother when she was
9, he was 14/15 I think). I hadn't yet realized that some of her
child-rearing practices were ignorant crap, so there are a couple of places
where I kind of brag her up for something I wouldn't do to a dog today.

So I suppose it was good, even though embarrassing, for me to see where I
COULD have ended up if I hadn't pursued truth'n'light (lite) which, for me,
took the form of Adult Children of Alcoholics and La Leche League all in the
space of a year and a half.

Lights were flooding on all over.

Sandra