The Mowery Family

Ok.....long story short. I found a lump in my breast the end of november, today I finally had a surgical consult and the surgeon( a lovely woman who pulls no punches) said she wants it out of there. So, here I am waiting again(first it was to see the doctor, then to have the mammo/ultrasound, then to discuss results, then waiting 4 weeks to get in with the surgeon). With each appointment, test or whatever, I psyched myself into thinking everything was fine, they would tell me it was nothing and I would be on my way. Now, I have to wait for the call to tell me when surgery is, what the pathology result will be, yadda yadda.

With the number of women on this list, I know I can't be the only one who has experienced something like this. How do you keep yourself from thinking yourself into a:) a major depression or b:) convincing yourself you have cancer and worrying about the family.

THEN, to top it all off. Joe's mom called to see how my appointment went and she went for her annual gyn checkup yesterday and they found a lump in her and she has to have a surgical consult. I feel so badly for my husband. But, I also feel guilty for wondering why I can't have a dilemma without sharing it with someone(his mom is the type of person if you had diarrhea, she would have it 3 times as bad as you with purple polka dots).

Sorry for blabbing this all to the list, but I have spent my day holed up in my room and now I can't sleep. I can't verbalize my feelings, but I can type them. I just wondered if any of you had been in the same boat and how you kept yourselves sane.

Thanks for listening,
Karen aka sistakammi


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Karen,
I have no experience with this kind of scare, but I wanted to say hello
tonight, and I'm sorry for everything you're going through.
I was moved, but not surprised, that you're worried about your family.
That's kind of a safety device itself maybe, or at least a sign that
you're a good mom.<g>
That mom thing never stops, does it?
It sounds like you've been through a lot lately. Maybe you just need
time to recharge.
I wish I could offer some advice about staying calm and centered. I'm
sorry.

I'll be thinking of you. Do you want me to stay up with you tonight? We
could exchange mother in law stories.<g>

Love&Peace,
Deb L

zenmomma *

>Ok.....long story short. I found a lump in my breast the end of november,
> >>

Oh Karen, I'm so sorry you've been going through all of this. I wish I had a
magic wand to make this all go away. Waiting for the doctors to do their
thing is sooo hard.

Maybe talking to all of us will help a little with your sanity. You've got
lots of support here. (as I'm sure you do IRL) Please post and talk and vent
as much as you need to.

With all good thoughts being sent your way,
~Mary



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Shyrley

The Mowery Family wrote:

> Ok.....long story short. I found a lump in my breast the end of
> november, today I finally had a surgical consult and the surgeon( a
> lovely woman who pulls no punches) said she wants it out of there.
> So, here I am waiting again(first it was to see the doctor, then to
> have the mammo/ultrasound, then to discuss results, then waiting 4
> weeks to get in with the surgeon). With each appointment, test or
> whatever, I psyched myself into thinking everything was fine, they
> would tell me it was nothing and I would be on my way. Now, I have to
> wait for the call to tell me when surgery is, what the pathology
> result will be, yadda yadda.
>
> With the number of women on this list, I know I can't be the only one
> who has experienced something like this. How do you keep yourself
> from thinking yourself into a:) a major depression or b:) convincing
> yourself you have cancer and worrying about the family.

I'm so sorry to hear this. When I was 27 I found a lump and my doctor
sent me to seea cancer specialist because all the women in my family
have died of it. I had just given birth to my third child and had three
littlies under three.
In England you have to wait a while to see a specialist (the down-side
of a free national health service) so in the 4 months I read everything
I could that was alternative treatments. I changed my diet to an organic
vegan one, stopped coffee, ate plenty of fresh vegetables (yuck). It was
taking these positive steps for my own health that got me through the
waiting time.
When I finally saw the consultant (who was a idiot I might add) he
wouldn't examine me. 'Women under 50 don't get breast cancer' he
announced and swept off. If I hadn't been nekkid I'd of run after him
and floored him. Fortunately his registrar was a nice man who examined
me, said it was probably a fibroadenoma and sent me for an ultrasound
exam. This was another 3 months later.
During that time I became a Reiki practitioner and started to study
homeopathy.
It was a FA but what kept me going through those months, apart from my
kids was the positive way I took control of my own health, removed
anything from my body that would poison it, and prevent it's own healing
machanisms from working.
I did get depressed at times, especially with the long waits, not
because I'm afriad of dying, but because I didn';t want to leave my
kids.
Anyway, I hope that things go well for you. You may feel up and down but
take control of what you can. Any illness can be a catalyst for change
whatever the outcome.
Good luck.

Shyrley



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Sharon Rudd

Karen aka sitkatami (did I spell it right?)

Love and Prayers

Sharon of the Swamp

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Karen

Karen: Be gentle with yourself. Let others help you. Control what you can;
let go what you can't. For god's sake, get some chocolate. Have a girls'
night out. Cry. Get silly.

We're thinking of you; keep us posted!

Mattie Leah



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Tia Leschke

>
>When I finally saw the consultant (who was a idiot I might add) he
>wouldn't examine me. 'Women under 50 don't get breast cancer' he
>announced and swept off. If I hadn't been nekkid I'd of run after him
>and floored him.

I guess so! I've lost two friends to breast cancer. Both were well under
50. Another was under 50 when she first got it.
Tia

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.
Eleanor Roosevelt
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Tia Leschke
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The Mowery Family

Thank you everyone for the kind words and thoughts. Things are better
today(at least at this moment <g>, the time before falling asleep is the
worst). The surgery is scheduled for 2/4. Being 33, I found that reading
up on everything they have told me so far is not helping me feel better.
The answers are either it's nothing, or it is something, and that something
is big. So.....I choose to no longer research the topic <g>. Whatever the
outcome, I will be glad to have an answer. Shryley was right, this is
definitely an opportunity to take note and make changes.

Karen(sistakammi)

meghan anderson

<<<<Thanks for listening,
Karen aka sistakammi>>>>

{{{{{{{{{Karen}}}}}}}}}

I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. My mom
had a similar experience and also had a hard time of
it. I'm sending lots of hugs and healing/healthy
thoughts your way.

Meghan

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