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Thank you, Ren. I appreciate what you said. In my stronger moments I
totally agree:) In my weaker moments, with unsupportive people talking
to me I get lost. It isnt that my family is just being mean, they have
all been brainwashed for so long they dont know any different. I told
the state my 17 year old has decided to quit schooling. In a way, I wish
I hadnt done that. I know they have called me. I missed the call. Maybe
they will give me an option I wont want to refuse. This child is so
wounded. He has gotten employment and has kept it for over a year now.
He is never late and went through a hell of an innitiation by older
boys. They were so mean. On top of that he is sensitive about his
learning disability/ability to be different. He is pulling away from me
because he is 17 and yet is still very injured by life. I keep letting
him know I am here. He has made some unhealthy drug-related choices
lately. I think he is back on track. He has had therapy and refuses to
go now. The family and I did an intervention and buoyed him up. We all
told him how much he means to us and that we love him and are here for
him. I hope our hearts are enough and yet I am aware, at times love
doesnt deter a person from hurting themselves. So I have my awareness
level up surrounding him. I think from all the brainwashing that he
wouldnt accept a diploma/graduation ceremony, etc. from unschooling
because he didnt "earn" it. :( It wouldnt seem "real" because it didnt
come from the usual black and white thought forms that the majority use
regarding schooling. It does take a leap of faith after all the
brainwashing to think there could be some sort of alternative ways. It
is sad because I think if he could believe it may be a form of healing
on a level that would benefit him. I am here. My heart is with his.
I am so grateful that this list, and you Ren, are here. It is helping me
mend my broken heart so that I can be here in the "now" for my
kids/family. Glad you and yours are safe. Blessings for you, Michele



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