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In a message dated 8/14/2002 10:58:16 AM Central Daylight Time,
[email protected] writes:


> The fear of hell is not peculiar to fundamentalist Christians, and I doubt
> it
> is what motivates them to belong to HSLDA, or Promise Keepers, or any other
>
> organization.
>
That is true.......there are other groups as well......they will use the hell
thing...
They have even told me that if I didn't follow what a certain prophet did,
believe, and so and so...then I was going to hell...... I would not enter
heaven/paradise.
Even my prayers are not accepted because they are not said in a particular
language.
So, if I do not follow, believe in other things outside of the realm or do
things a certain way then I am condemned.
I know it is a control issue and it's so hard breaking away because you have
been conditioned and brainwashed for so long....... I have lost alot of
me....of who I was and who am suppose to be. BEcause of the assumilation, but
it is slowly being washed away, but it is taking ALOT of time. I was battling
the demons so to speak....on one side my spirit guides trying to guide me and
then the other side of religions trying to control me and my thoughts and
telling me that they are wrong. It was wrong to talk to your spirit
guides/ancestors.
I was hurt when I was told that I could no longer celebrate Kwanzaa....my
ethinicity was stripped.
It's all about control and I can admit that it works and I am fighting HARD
to be free.........

Peace ALL

Kim


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