What a wonderful morning!!
Rachel
Today is a beautiful crisp winter day with the sun shining! We still
have bits and pieces of snow patches to make the golden rays twinkle
like magic faery dust. Oh the sunshine helps me sooo much.
Last night I lay (crap, is it lay or laid, I never have figured that
one out) awake worrying about how this morning would go. I have many
personal issues with what I believe about this popular holiday from
not only the religious aspect but also the materialistic, traditional
and what is the right thing to do about Santa. SOOOOOOOOO...........
I took deep breaths and tried to *feel* abundance, but that feeling is
strange and unfamiliar to me. I don't recall ever feeling *enough*
without the feeling of *but not for long*. I thought peace. I could
feel peace. I thought love. I could feel love. But I don't have any
memory of abundance. I will make one. Sooooooooooo.........
I imagined what I thought abundance might feel like. Is this *right*?
Is this what real abundance feels like? I don't know..... but I also
don't care. It feels way better than unabundance. In time real
abundance will be in my *now* because I will know what it feels like,
but for this moment, I will create abundance for Megan and Sophia and
Brandon.Sooooo....
This morning was wonderful. Everyone felt full of fullness, full of
love, full of peace, and yes....also full of presents that they were
very happy with, even Sophia who seems to need *more* of most things
to feel full had abundance in her day.
Peace, Light and Joy to you
Rachel
have bits and pieces of snow patches to make the golden rays twinkle
like magic faery dust. Oh the sunshine helps me sooo much.
Last night I lay (crap, is it lay or laid, I never have figured that
one out) awake worrying about how this morning would go. I have many
personal issues with what I believe about this popular holiday from
not only the religious aspect but also the materialistic, traditional
and what is the right thing to do about Santa. SOOOOOOOOO...........
I took deep breaths and tried to *feel* abundance, but that feeling is
strange and unfamiliar to me. I don't recall ever feeling *enough*
without the feeling of *but not for long*. I thought peace. I could
feel peace. I thought love. I could feel love. But I don't have any
memory of abundance. I will make one. Sooooooooooo.........
I imagined what I thought abundance might feel like. Is this *right*?
Is this what real abundance feels like? I don't know..... but I also
don't care. It feels way better than unabundance. In time real
abundance will be in my *now* because I will know what it feels like,
but for this moment, I will create abundance for Megan and Sophia and
Brandon.Sooooo....
This morning was wonderful. Everyone felt full of fullness, full of
love, full of peace, and yes....also full of presents that they were
very happy with, even Sophia who seems to need *more* of most things
to feel full had abundance in her day.
Peace, Light and Joy to you
Rachel
Ren Allen
~~This morning was wonderful. Everyone felt full of fullness, full of
love, full of peace, and yes....also full of presents that they were
very happy with, even Sophia who seems to need *more* of most things
to feel full had abundance in her day.~~
Ah...that is wonderful. Thanks for sharing about your struggle and
your Christmas morning.
I had my own meltdown this week. I have this image of the "perfect"
Christmas stamped into my brain by the three women most influential in
my life..my mother, my aunt and my maternal grandmother. They had some
fierce victorian ideals and our Christmas as children were pretty
decadent. Lots of amazing food (I'm talking tons of handmade, baked,
beautiful foods) gifts, people etc...
Our Christmas here has most often been without family and this year I
was struggling with feelings of "not enough". I KNOW logically that I
connect more with my children than the adults in my life did. I KNOW
that playing games with them and reading together and all those lovely
things are what is important. But because I couldn't provide the
decadent meal (it was still pretty fabulous if I say so) and the TONS
of gifts I was feeling this terrific lack.
Knowing logically where it stems from, didn't stop the feeling. Then
there was this really intense grief that hit me, where I was missing
my mother's incredible way of connecting and honoring her
grandchildren. She baked with them and bought them amazing gifts that
were very personal. She really made the holidays awesome for us.
I had a good cry in the bathroom, felt sorry for myself and working
through that process ended up feeling pretty good. We had a very
low-key and wonderful day. In spite of Jalen throwing up last night,
in spite of dh feeling under the weather today, Christmas was perfect
and beautiful. Perfectly imperfect right? I am exactly where I need to
be and the day was exactly what we needed.:) I am surrounded by people
I love more than anything and we have all that we need. The kids are
happily playing with their Christmas toys and I realize how incredible
this life really is.
I hope everyone had joy and connections today, like every day and can
feel abundance all around. Life is good.
Ren
learninginfreedom.com
love, full of peace, and yes....also full of presents that they were
very happy with, even Sophia who seems to need *more* of most things
to feel full had abundance in her day.~~
Ah...that is wonderful. Thanks for sharing about your struggle and
your Christmas morning.
I had my own meltdown this week. I have this image of the "perfect"
Christmas stamped into my brain by the three women most influential in
my life..my mother, my aunt and my maternal grandmother. They had some
fierce victorian ideals and our Christmas as children were pretty
decadent. Lots of amazing food (I'm talking tons of handmade, baked,
beautiful foods) gifts, people etc...
Our Christmas here has most often been without family and this year I
was struggling with feelings of "not enough". I KNOW logically that I
connect more with my children than the adults in my life did. I KNOW
that playing games with them and reading together and all those lovely
things are what is important. But because I couldn't provide the
decadent meal (it was still pretty fabulous if I say so) and the TONS
of gifts I was feeling this terrific lack.
Knowing logically where it stems from, didn't stop the feeling. Then
there was this really intense grief that hit me, where I was missing
my mother's incredible way of connecting and honoring her
grandchildren. She baked with them and bought them amazing gifts that
were very personal. She really made the holidays awesome for us.
I had a good cry in the bathroom, felt sorry for myself and working
through that process ended up feeling pretty good. We had a very
low-key and wonderful day. In spite of Jalen throwing up last night,
in spite of dh feeling under the weather today, Christmas was perfect
and beautiful. Perfectly imperfect right? I am exactly where I need to
be and the day was exactly what we needed.:) I am surrounded by people
I love more than anything and we have all that we need. The kids are
happily playing with their Christmas toys and I realize how incredible
this life really is.
I hope everyone had joy and connections today, like every day and can
feel abundance all around. Life is good.
Ren
learninginfreedom.com
Vickisue Gray
Thanks Ren,
We had a very wonderful Christmas here, too.
Just my spouse and kids, then off to work I went.
Yesterday I had my 'great day of tears' as my spouse
just learned that the lower section of his lungs appear
'stuck together'. (He had been rushed to the ER)
We'll get the results of the cat scan in four more days...
He seems to be handling it well by loving our kids for all
their worth. Makes you think about just what is important.
Vicki
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From: Ren Allen <starsuncloud@...>
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tuesday, December 25, 2007 10:06:23 PM
Subject: [unschoolingbasics] Re: What a wonderful morning!!
~~This morning was wonderful. Everyone felt full of fullness, full of
love, full of peace, and yes....also full of presents that they were
very happy with, even Sophia who seems to need *more* of most things
to feel full had abundance in her day.~~
Ah...that is wonderful. Thanks for sharing about your struggle and
your Christmas morning.
I had my own meltdown this week. I have this image of the "perfect"
Christmas stamped into my brain by the three women most influential in
my life..my mother, my aunt and my maternal grandmother. They had some
fierce victorian ideals and our Christmas as children were pretty
decadent. Lots of amazing food (I'm talking tons of handmade, baked,
beautiful foods) gifts, people etc...
Our Christmas here has most often been without family and this year I
was struggling with feelings of "not enough". I KNOW logically that I
connect more with my children than the adults in my life did. I KNOW
that playing games with them and reading together and all those lovely
things are what is important. But because I couldn't provide the
decadent meal (it was still pretty fabulous if I say so) and the TONS
of gifts I was feeling this terrific lack.
Knowing logically where it stems from, didn't stop the feeling. Then
there was this really intense grief that hit me, where I was missing
my mother's incredible way of connecting and honoring her
grandchildren. She baked with them and bought them amazing gifts that
were very personal. She really made the holidays awesome for us.
I had a good cry in the bathroom, felt sorry for myself and working
through that process ended up feeling pretty good. We had a very
low-key and wonderful day. In spite of Jalen throwing up last night,
in spite of dh feeling under the weather today, Christmas was perfect
and beautiful. Perfectly imperfect right? I am exactly where I need to
be and the day was exactly what we needed.:) I am surrounded by people
I love more than anything and we have all that we need. The kids are
happily playing with their Christmas toys and I realize how incredible
this life really is.
I hope everyone had joy and connections today, like every day and can
feel abundance all around. Life is good.
Ren
learninginfreedom. com
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We had a very wonderful Christmas here, too.
Just my spouse and kids, then off to work I went.
Yesterday I had my 'great day of tears' as my spouse
just learned that the lower section of his lungs appear
'stuck together'. (He had been rushed to the ER)
We'll get the results of the cat scan in four more days...
He seems to be handling it well by loving our kids for all
their worth. Makes you think about just what is important.
Vicki
----- Original Message ----
From: Ren Allen <starsuncloud@...>
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tuesday, December 25, 2007 10:06:23 PM
Subject: [unschoolingbasics] Re: What a wonderful morning!!
~~This morning was wonderful. Everyone felt full of fullness, full of
love, full of peace, and yes....also full of presents that they were
very happy with, even Sophia who seems to need *more* of most things
to feel full had abundance in her day.~~
Ah...that is wonderful. Thanks for sharing about your struggle and
your Christmas morning.
I had my own meltdown this week. I have this image of the "perfect"
Christmas stamped into my brain by the three women most influential in
my life..my mother, my aunt and my maternal grandmother. They had some
fierce victorian ideals and our Christmas as children were pretty
decadent. Lots of amazing food (I'm talking tons of handmade, baked,
beautiful foods) gifts, people etc...
Our Christmas here has most often been without family and this year I
was struggling with feelings of "not enough". I KNOW logically that I
connect more with my children than the adults in my life did. I KNOW
that playing games with them and reading together and all those lovely
things are what is important. But because I couldn't provide the
decadent meal (it was still pretty fabulous if I say so) and the TONS
of gifts I was feeling this terrific lack.
Knowing logically where it stems from, didn't stop the feeling. Then
there was this really intense grief that hit me, where I was missing
my mother's incredible way of connecting and honoring her
grandchildren. She baked with them and bought them amazing gifts that
were very personal. She really made the holidays awesome for us.
I had a good cry in the bathroom, felt sorry for myself and working
through that process ended up feeling pretty good. We had a very
low-key and wonderful day. In spite of Jalen throwing up last night,
in spite of dh feeling under the weather today, Christmas was perfect
and beautiful. Perfectly imperfect right? I am exactly where I need to
be and the day was exactly what we needed.:) I am surrounded by people
I love more than anything and we have all that we need. The kids are
happily playing with their Christmas toys and I realize how incredible
this life really is.
I hope everyone had joy and connections today, like every day and can
feel abundance all around. Life is good.
Ren
learninginfreedom. com
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Joanne
Merry Christmas to all who celebrate. :-)
Because this was our first Christmas without my mother, we had a very
low key day today, choosing to spend a quiet and refective day close to
home. My husband made lasagna for the first time (it was great!) and we
did some crafts and played a lot of board games (Connect 4, Pay Day,
Clue and Othello).
~~~ Joanne ~~~
http://www.myspace.com/joannegreco
Because this was our first Christmas without my mother, we had a very
low key day today, choosing to spend a quiet and refective day close to
home. My husband made lasagna for the first time (it was great!) and we
did some crafts and played a lot of board games (Connect 4, Pay Day,
Clue and Othello).
~~~ Joanne ~~~
http://www.myspace.com/joannegreco
Amanda Horein
Sorry, I am behind a little. Congrats on the great morning. I can't say
the same. I am used to being surrounded by family and of course food and
some presents. Well, we had the "some presents" and some food, but I
struggled with the family aspect. My BIL was at our house with his Wii so
all dh wanted to do was play that with his brother whom he rarely sees. My
girls just wanted to play video games too. In fact, presents didn't even
hold their attention. I dealt with it, which basically means I pushed my
feelings aside.
I am better now, but I was being a HUGE martyr. How sad for my family.
--
Amanda
Wife to Roger (nearly 10 years)
Mum to Marti (7) and Lilly (4)
Babysitter to Stella (3)
http://whatmykidstaughtme.blogspot.com/
"Real luxury is time and opportunity to read for pleasure"
-Jane Brody
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the same. I am used to being surrounded by family and of course food and
some presents. Well, we had the "some presents" and some food, but I
struggled with the family aspect. My BIL was at our house with his Wii so
all dh wanted to do was play that with his brother whom he rarely sees. My
girls just wanted to play video games too. In fact, presents didn't even
hold their attention. I dealt with it, which basically means I pushed my
feelings aside.
I am better now, but I was being a HUGE martyr. How sad for my family.
--
Amanda
Wife to Roger (nearly 10 years)
Mum to Marti (7) and Lilly (4)
Babysitter to Stella (3)
http://whatmykidstaughtme.blogspot.com/
"Real luxury is time and opportunity to read for pleasure"
-Jane Brody
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