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By golly,  I am so excited.  I was given some new reading to help me see "my thinking" and what was holding me back.  As I went through the list I recognized a lot of the material but then I came around to this one...

 

*The first stage is the longest and most difficult and involves getting rid of all school-think, which includes classes and "instruction" and school-speak.  Lovejoy *

 

As I thought on this, I realized I have put aside the curriculum, the test and all the other school looking things,  however, my brain still has an inch of "school thinking" dust on it.  So as I have set aside (just in case someone comes over) everything schoolish , I still carry a brain full of worry about what if _________ (exert name) finds out and what will they say!  Yikes! 

 

Okay, there you have it...truth!  I was holding on to my homeschool room.  It is for appearance! 

 

So I went into my closet and did some self talking and realized I had to get the Pledge out and dust my brain clean of a lot of "words"!  My vocabulary will be changed forever!  Thank you!   Also, I will have to stop worrying about what people will say or even think. 

 

Then the most amazing thing happened.  I saw my sister in a different light too.  I allowed her "hot schoolish breath" to fog up my vision.  So I had to get the Windex out and wipe my foggy vision...phew. 

 

Now I really see it and really know what I need to do.  :D  No more "homeschool room".  Period.  The room will  be reorganized and be like any other room in the house.  Not set separated from our living but a part of everyday living and enjoyment.  The kids already have a few ideas.  A gaming center with a couch and a ping pong table.

 

Also, I read about "urgency".  I really know now why this list has to be the way it is and should be. It is love and concern. To get our head out of our butt.  I cried and cried!  It really is because we don't have much time and if we parents don't get this grounded,  we are wasting precious time with our little ones. 

 

 It is about my children and my "dusty brain and foggy eyes" are getting in their way.  No more!!!   

 

Later on....

 

My 15 year old daughter said, "Hey, let's all watch Monster's Inc.".  Everyone agreed and then as we were watching it, something amazing happened.  The same daughter told me how much she loved this movie and that she saw things she never saw before, because I can now think for myself.  I smiled.  Next, I had taped Frosty the Snowman and forgot about it.  After Monster's Inc. the children saw it on the DVR and watched it too.  My 7 year was in shock that the teacher would not let the children out to play in the snow.  She let me know quickly how much she loved me...and said very loudly and proudly that her mother would let her go out in the snow to play.  :D   A small hope that I am on the right path, now on to the journey of a life of learning for me and my children! 

 

From the bottom of my heart...thank you!  I am forever changed.  :D

Jen